BECAUSE I CARE...I DON'T CARE

Because I care...I don't care what people say, what people do, what people think. I have finally understood that I can't make everyone happy. Funny, I think, because we hear that all the time, however, we never truly understand the concept. We get so caught up in the drama, and our surroundings that we forget to make ourselves truly happy. I am still evolving into this new person, life has lend me a hand in that, and I must admit, it isn't easy. Sometimes I wish I had the courage to just say......(FUCK IT!) and actually act on the impuse... and truly feel that..."It's all about me"; but in reality since birth we are trained to not think or much less act this way. However, as selfish as it may sound it really isn't selfish at all. In life you have to treat yourself first, second, and third, then you can give room to everything else in your life. Why is this unselfish...simple as long as you take care of you...you will be happier and much more willing to help others...if you want to of course. As wives, mothers, daughters, sisters, brothers, and friends we feel bad to think this way, but looking at it from a different perspective being a truly happy person..you can emmit that to your loved ones. It's funny how we loose track of the truly important things in life. Why? I ask myself this all the time. Why does something major have to happen in our lives to make us see what is truly important and appreciate it.

I still haven't been able to find the strength to fight for what I want...I guess I'm waiting for you!

Life has a funny way of working itself out. Sometimes we push and push for what we want, and it just doesn't happen....but we keep on pushing...and still nothing...then all of a sudden BOOM...BAM...you fall right on your face, and realize that although we are the artists of our own destiny, there is a higher power that has already dictated what is to come of our lives.

REACH FOR THE SKY

Wonderful things come to those who are willing to reach for the sky. Sometimes we wonder when that time will come...today I am confident that it does. I still don't know when, but I know it will. Through it all, I've never felt angry....sad, many times, but never angry. Everything happens for a reason, and sometimes we do not need to know the reason, just accept it, and wait for the reward....because the reward is just around the corner, it comes just when you least expect it.